And the thoughts go crazy
the feelings blue
never again will there be
A glimpse of you. 

Had I tried harder
were you there any longer
if only i’d understood better
would you still have been there? 

the sun hides behind the cloud
and the wind heaves
flowers bloom no more
and the trees have shed their leaves
nature teases me
camouflaging the bare soul
asking, trying to be set free 

i wish upon a shooting star
asking you back
to rid me of the scar
the hole in my heart’s grown big and black
and i’m dying
heal me
only you can save me 

the door is ajar
if u must know
and i’m waiting– not so far
with a deserted hope
of some sign you’ll show.

 I am living a life that’s full of illusions ! I don’t know why the toughest and the moral guy like me surrendered to the situations. Stuck by the present situation, I don’t know where I should go. Relentlessly and without any hope, I am trying to spend my life on a hope ! Why I am forcing the destiny to change for me when I know it won’t. I have thousands of way but I am stuck on one. I know the person whom I completely trust and love won’t love me at all. Honestly she has decleared her inability to stand by my side. 

I know things are gonna be difficult but I never knew that I will suddenly reach a stage of dead end. …………..

I did not gave any happyness to anyone not even to my parents and everyone hates me and I deserve this. May be my death can bring happiness to someone’s life……..I would like to say sorry to all those who have been hurt from my behavior.                                                                                                                                           rajiv_sharma23@hotmail.com